April 2011
2 posts
nother sleepless night? yep..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7n5IiJTqF4&feature=... →
March 2011
8 posts
I hate this… These feelings of sadness
Yet what’s the point, this longing shall only lead my ass to madness. Out of everyone I could love shes treated me the best, she’s been an angel to me and what the fuk have I done for her
Other than drive her mad.
Shes convinced me to believe in myself my words, my mentality, but manages to question her own… Love, this confusing...
Why, why did she think splitting up would make it easier? Sugh, she scares me some days
this love thing just ain’t gonna work out for me is it? hahaha that bein said, im too damn stubborn to give up, and i love her too much to give up on her
Hahaha losing the one person on this earth who makes me happy.. fuck
People look at me an say
“why you with her anyways?”
And I always look em in the eye and reply
I’m withe her cuz she’s te best thing to err happen to my sorry ass
When I’m with her, I feel invincible, like my hearts bout to explode
Holdin her in my arms makes my heart beat so hard I fear it’ll explode
Andwhen I get lucky enough to kiss her, time just seems...
really don’t know what the hell she sees in me, but im damn glad she sees somethin
how the hell is it that im already tired of this life i’m living. must be fuckin magical i guess
October 2010
6 posts
i really gotta stop trying to feel sane. it just keeps complicatin shit
I know I post stuff sayin ain’t it fun when…. Or ain’t it fun to…. And have it end with sarcasm, but seriously, isn’t it just amazing to have someone you can’t help, even though you want to so badly
don’t you just love how when you finally feel like you have your shit together, you start over-thinking and basically make your own life worse….. fucking wonderful
why this pain, glorious in its lack of end, has the power to change my heart.
whether it be for good or for worse, only time may tell, yet i will be subject to it, that i assure you
i can’t think of a fitting end to this poem, so fuck it. i can’t get her outta my head. please just …. hell with it
for once, all feels right
goddammit. she’s my angel, yet my demon, my cure and my sickness, my tie to sanity, yet the object of my crazed thoughts…. yet i love her. the question is… does she love me. somebody please help me out. i know thats sad, but jesus… im just so tired….
September 2010
4 posts
can i please, please get somebody to tell me why with as much as i love her and with as much as she means to me, i feel pained when i think of her…..
damn do i miss her. she’s all i think about, my angel, more than i could hope for, more than i could dream of….. yet, am i worthy of her grace? does she really love me? and…. why …. why does she put up with a guy like me?
how i got lucky enough to have her put up with me, to have her miss me, to have her love… is well beyond me. but damn am i lucky
August 2010
1 post
So nice to be back
July 2010
7 posts
I can feel my sanity slipping slowly away….. Man ain’t life fun
“its way too fucking quiet in Murrysville…. not a quote, just a damn fact.”
Today, I found an iPod app for tumblr. My day is made
“i was just forced to see eclipse for my friends...”
“what is it that bothers me? Is it that i love her beyond belief? Is it that i...”
“parents always seem to make you feel like the worlds largest asshole. fuck”
“life tends to remind me of Dante Alighieri’s the Divine Comedy.
hahaha...”
June 2010
3 posts
“our eyes are placed in front because its more important to look forward than it...”
“wake me up when my life ends”
“fuck the light. i prefer the dark”
May 2010
3 posts
“i know this shit is supposed to be deep or meaningful, but after a week like...”
“i spent time tryin to think of something deep to say… and this is all...”
“love within life is the most confusing thing god gave us
many ask “what...”
April 2010
8 posts
“these thoughts blind my reasoning. my failings are their comedy
this hope which...”
“the smell of roses is always multiplied as the leaves dry and decay
\as a human...”
“pain is a healing unto itself, used by those who won’t go to others
hate...”
“feels like my heart is being pulled through my chest,
these cold fingers of...”
“leave me now and take my heart with you
for i have no need for it as a broken...”
“Live with honor,
Die with pride”
“its a sad realization that my mind is my greatest enemy and that i’m...”
“if man carries on his ways of self-righteous hatred
then he shall fall
if man...”
March 2010
8 posts
“They say that a man develops brains when they fail at everything else
it is...”
– the deepest dark parts of my mind
“hope is the only thing that ties us to sanity
the only thing that causes...”
– like hell i use sources
“love is life’s favorite way of healing
and its favorite method of...”
“sometimes, life is nucking futs”
“worker bees can leave
even drones can fly away
the queen is their slave”
“living in the light is a life of freedom it breeds ignorance and laziness. Yet...”
“thug 4 life. yeah i know. sad as shit first post. but fuck it”